One Month Old

Little Man,

We survived a whole month together!! Not that I had any doubts whether we would or not, as you are the best baby ever. All you have done for the last 4 weeks is eat, sleep and make me and your daddy very happy.

We tried breastfeeding but you are just so hungry that unless you get food immediately, you tend to scream the place down. It just didn't seem like a good fit for you and me, so now you are formula fed and you seem to love it. Thankfully you aren't a windy baby and don't seem to be affected by colic. You drink between 6 and 8 5 oz bottles a day and some nights, you have 7 oz for your last feed. In fact, when you came home from the hospital you were drinking 3 oz and when you were about 10 days old you drank 6 oz before going to bed. Your daddy and I were really worried because we thought your teeny tiny belly wouldn't be able for it but you were perfectly fine and slept for 5 hours afterwards. It was then that we put you up to 4 oz bottles.

I always thought that being a mum would be so hard and difficult and that i would not be able for it. i always knew that i wanted babies but i wasn't sure how good i would be. i don;t know whether it is because you are so good, or because its not how imagined but either way being your mum is much easier than i thought. the sleep deprivation gets me about once a week (or sometimes less) and all i want to do is cry because at that moment i am so tired and wish i could sleep through the night once and then i look at your gorgeous little face and everything is fine. i miss you when i am asleep. i know that might sound crazy but i love waking up and getting a snuggle from you, it is by far the best thing in the world. i love giving you loads of kisses all over your beautiful face and i love when i put you on my shoulder and up push up and look around with your huge eyes. these moments are what make being your mum the best thing in the whole world. i always thought i would never be a stay at home mum but now that we have you here i couldn't ever imagine not being at home with you and any brothers or sister you may have. you just make me so happy.

nana came to visit us when you were 8 days old and she brought you so many clothes, but you being the little monster that you are, have outgrown all your 0-3 vests and onesies and are now wearing 3-6. you still have some 0-3 clothes that you fit into but it is so hot here, i don't know how much longer you will be able to wear them for. i think its going to be vests and nappies all summer long little man.

im writing this a little late as you are 5 weeks old tomorrow, but last tuesday, the 7th, daddy and i brought you to the clinic to be weighed and measured. in the 3 weeks since we left the hospital you have gained 2 lbs and grown 3 centimeters, meaning you are now 12 lbs and 59 centimeters long. you really need to stop growing so quickly because you really aren't a newborn any more. i know girls who have 3 month olds who aren't as big as you are now. I am oddly proud about your size compared to other babies. You are living proof that a mum doesn't have to eat healthily (or eat anything at all!!) during pregnancy to have a big, healthy baby.

I love you oh so much little man x