Thursday, 16 May 2013

growing up

i have been getting you into some kind of routine at night time that means you only wake once for about 30 minutes. it is usually between 4 am and 5 am and you wake, have 3 oz of your bottle, a quick nappy change and back to sleep. in order for you to sleep like that at night, i need you to stay awake during the day. yesterday that didn't happen. you slept in my and daddy's arms all afternoon and then come 7 o clock you were wide awake. however, i think i may know why you did so much sleeping. it was a growth spurt. how do i know this?? because you gave me the biggest smile ever this morning and you even laughed. it was just so cute and made my heart burst with love for you. i think i cant love you any more than i already do and then all of a sudden you do something to make me love you even more.

the downside to you smiling is that you now have tears when you cry. i never knew babies didnt have tears until they are about 6 weeks old. well today you had huge tears in your eyes and one rolled down your cheek, it literally broke my heart. your poor face looks so sad and you have this huge murphy lip - my heart isnt able for it, i need the smiles baby :-)

your auntie donna sent over some of leo's clothes for you today and i cant wait for you to wear them. you are gonna be the most stylish baby on the block :-)

i love you baba xxx

One Month Old

Little Man,

We survived a whole month together!! Not that I had any doubts whether we would or not, as you are the best baby ever. All you have done for the last 4 weeks is eat, sleep and make me and your daddy very happy.

We tried breastfeeding but you are just so hungry that unless you get food immediately, you tend to scream the place down. It just didn't seem like a good fit for you and me, so now you are formula fed and you seem to love it. Thankfully you aren't a windy baby and don't seem to be affected by colic. You drink between 6 and 8 5 oz bottles a day and some nights, you have 7 oz for your last feed. In fact, when you came home from the hospital you were drinking 3 oz and when you were about 10 days old you drank 6 oz before going to bed. Your daddy and I were really worried because we thought your teeny tiny belly wouldn't be able for it but you were perfectly fine and slept for 5 hours afterwards. It was then that we put you up to 4 oz bottles.

I always thought that being a mum would be so hard and difficult and that i would not be able for it. i always knew that i wanted babies but i wasn't sure how good i would be. i don;t know whether it is because you are so good, or because its not how imagined but either way being your mum is much easier than i thought. the sleep deprivation gets me about once a week (or sometimes less) and all i want to do is cry because at that moment i am so tired and wish i could sleep through the night once and then i look at your gorgeous little face and everything is fine. i miss you when i am asleep. i know that might sound crazy but i love waking up and getting a snuggle from you, it is by far the best thing in the world. i love giving you loads of kisses all over your beautiful face and i love when i put you on my shoulder and up push up and look around with your huge eyes. these moments are what make being your mum the best thing in the whole world. i always thought i would never be a stay at home mum but now that we have you here i couldn't ever imagine not being at home with you and any brothers or sister you may have. you just make me so happy.

nana came to visit us when you were 8 days old and she brought you so many clothes, but you being the little monster that you are, have outgrown all your 0-3 vests and onesies and are now wearing 3-6. you still have some 0-3 clothes that you fit into but it is so hot here, i don't know how much longer you will be able to wear them for. i think its going to be vests and nappies all summer long little man.

im writing this a little late as you are 5 weeks old tomorrow, but last tuesday, the 7th, daddy and i brought you to the clinic to be weighed and measured. in the 3 weeks since we left the hospital you have gained 2 lbs and grown 3 centimeters, meaning you are now 12 lbs and 59 centimeters long. you really need to stop growing so quickly because you really aren't a newborn any more. i know girls who have 3 month olds who aren't as big as you are now. I am oddly proud about your size compared to other babies. You are living proof that a mum doesn't have to eat healthily (or eat anything at all!!) during pregnancy to have a big, healthy baby.

I love you oh so much little man x


Saturday, 4 May 2013

25 Days Old

little man, I cannot believe you are 25 days old. the last 3 and a bit weeks have gone by in the blink of an eye and it also seems like you have been in my life forever. You are still so tiny but you are growing far too quickly for my liking. You are in size 3 nappies (we skipped size 2 as your Dad and I cannot seem to find them anywhere) and you are taking at least 5 oz at every feed. Some days you will feed every 3 hours during the day but you are wonderful at night. You are usually asleep by 11:00pm and sleep til around 4 am. Then you and I have some serious snuggles while you have your bottle and you then sleep until about 8 am. I think if you weren't such a hungry little monster you would sleep longer during the night.

Today hasn't been your best day as you have been full of wind since your 4 am feed. You have only slept for about 40 mins at a go today and the rest of the time you have pulling your legs up to your belly and letting out some of the loudest farts I have ever heard!! I think you have been in pain as you are so unsettled but, thankfully you haven't been crying either. the only place you seem comfortable enough to sleep is on top of me, so right now that is where you are, snoring away.

tonight when i was getting you dressed for bed, i dressed you in the onesie we dressed you in when you were born. i have all this love that is fit to burst out of me when i remember you being born. it still seems so surreal to me that you grew inside me for 9 months and then you came into this world, and that i did it all. today i want you to stay a tiny newborn forever.

i love you more than i can ever tell you my love x